Lucky?

Scenario 1
She : I'd been molested.
He : You are LUCKY, you were not being rape.

Scenario 2
She : I'd been raped.
He : You are LUCKY, you were not pregnant.

Scenario 3
She : I'd been raped and I'm pregnant.
He : You are LUCKY, he didn't kill you.

Ohh people, by saying that she is LUCKY is NOT the way to comfort her. It's enough for her to live her life with the burden. Who is the LUCKY one actually???LELAKI??? LUCKY and LELAKI..rhythm uh??

p/s - just sumthing to ponder..mind off if it was sensitive for you!

Old friends, New comebacks

After so much things happened to me lately, i realized, i gained a lot especially in my social circles. Old friends, people i left for few years suddenly pop-up in front of me. People i used to let go and sacrifice during my social retreat years suddenly came back into my life. :) I'm flattered..I was just like waking up from my very long-long sleep. to realize how friendship means so much to me..to know which REAL friends are there through thick and thin.. to start trusting people back.. to gain back my social confidence.. I have learned a lot!Thank you for always be there friends :)

p/s- F.L.O.W.E.R (Friendships Like Ours Will Eternally Remain)

Dreams

Ayeem self portrait minus the curly hair. :P~Just my masterpiece i did on my so called bored day; today :D Using some brushes in adobe photoshop cs2 i managed to come out with the idea. It wasn't that good but enough to satisfy me :) I dreamt to be a designer long-long time ago but i ended up doing engineering...weird weird world huh?I have 2 friends whose dream to be rock stars and politicians..they believe they sumday will create sumthing big to the world..ambitious!Insyaalah..there always a will if we want sumthing..shoot for the moon even if u fail, u still be among the stars :) Good Luck dears! Do leave your comment on dis . merci! :)

p/s - you dun always get what u want. but u always get what u need :) Allah maha adil~

Shoes!Shoes!Shoes!

Let me tell you, i am a shoe addict :) everytime i went out for a shopping spree i will look out for shoes! and shoes is always my priority when i have money to spend...it's been a few months i didn't go for shoes hunting..but i still have a long list of shoes i want :) hunting for shoes is like hunting for your partner..you want to find a pair of shoes who fit you..comfortable to wear ..and look good on you..something that can match your wearings..and always support also protect you from dirt and harm..same like our partner! Frankly, i'm so into guys with shoes :D sport shoes especially!I also judge people thru shoes.. like me, i'm always end up with complicated and gonna-hurt-my-feet shoes...my mom called it, the shoes that eat my feet..that's why i always keep plaster or bandage in my bag :P~ same with my love life..it's always complicated and hurts and it eats my heart inside!Looking at other people..people who likes to wear other people's shoes are like to steal other people's property..even girlfrens/boyfrens! They are more interested with other people property instead of theirs even it dun match them (i know one!). And people who don't care what shoes they are wearing are people who dun care about their life...like..anything will do..i-dun-care-if-i-look-stupid!Sandals and flip flops are for simple people...they are more open minded people(i think!).One more thing..people can look at your shoes and they can comment about it!OK, enough comparing shoes with life!

I dun wear heels..because i had problem with it...maybe i'm too clumsy or maybe i'm not that stable.. I still remember i slipped off in front Dato' Sharizat Jalil during my graduation night certificate giving due to my high heels. Yeah, of course people laughed at me and since then i rarely wear one.Thank you high heels!I did wear heels during my internship a year ago but only in my office. I went to work in flip flops and changed them after that :P~ somehow high heels will hurt my ankle badly, so i dun really prefer them tho i am short!If the shoe fit then wear it!If it doesnt why we must change the feet?If you find someone who fit you, love him/her..If he/she doesn't fit you..why you have to change yourself?

My list of wanted shoes start with this shoe ;

I saw this shoe in Jaya Jusco Ipoh a few months ago. I've done collecting RM210 for the shoes :) yeay!This is a santa cruz Crocs shoes coloured with white/lapis pat. This laid back shoe provide casual beach style. I'm loving it!I just love slip-on canvas shoes!

This is my second crave..heh :) uppity-rhino red by marc ecko :D i saw this shoe in Sunway pyramid when i was window shopping with Alin.. I really love the rhinestone accented forefoot strap and rubber outsole. Suke..suke..suke..!mau..mau..mau!

p/s- How about living in ayeem's shoe for a day?

Puisi

I snoozed off in my tears. I woke up still in cry. But I turned around and I smiled. :) I got a few short-message-services. I read. I laughed. A poem to be exact and like this, part of it sounds…

Setelah, beberapa purnama, Tergamam ku seketika seolah tersentak dari lama tidurku.Kau hadir kembali, jiwaku beronak keceriaan,Bunga-bunga mekar kembali,Burung-burung berkicauan gembira, Mentari muncul memancar sinar…

Ewah!..never read such things..funny..it did made me laugh! Thank you. I do really appreciate it…Thank you for your help.. Thank you for your support.. Thank you for making me laugh :)

p/s - Aku tidak tahu berpuitis. Maafkan aku :P~

Brushes

Today, i tried to pile up and load different brushes in adobe photoshop to made a 400x100 canvas effect tag. I wasted my whole day downloading different .abr files from the internet and the best webie i cud find the best brushes is http://www.brusheezy.com/ (try it!). I dun really have that talent to make my own brushes using adobe illustrator, so it's better for me just to use those brushes i've already downloaded from the internet. :) haha..senang-cepat-mudah! Tho there are many complicated brushes to download i just picked the cute ones as i'm just a newbie in this. Unfortunately my trial to make a chantek tag turned into disaster and emi did laugh out at it. I tried again but again but still, it looked hideous!But, i still dun have the shame to promote my bad artwork here, in my blog..So, here goes my-'art'work-i-did-when-i-was-so-bored..any comment will do..positive or negative i just dun care!trying to improve myself with the talent that i lacked of..and do compare mine with emi's...*sigh*..

my first attempt :)

my second attempt :)

emi's ; trying to promote me ;)

p/s - creative??? so-not-me!

The Lies and Betrayal

SHATTERED, furious, resentful, heartbroken, numb, humiliated, rejected, hurt, and NOT SAFE – these are just some of the feelings we experience when we’ve been betrayed.

Many people hear the word, "betrayal", and think of infidelity, yet the experience is actually much broader. Yes, the hurt feelings can result from a love betrayal, but the same symptoms can also be triggered by an unfaithful coworker or boss; betrayal in a friendship; disloyalty from a workplace, community, even country; the earth appearing to turn on us; or what is sometimes described as the ultimate betrayal - a loss of trust or faith in our relationship with “something bigger, something spiritual”. Regardless of the source, the emotional distress is often severe.

A friend knowingly breaks a confidence that causes hurt and loss of reputation; this is betrayal... A spouse professes love and loyalty while involved in an emotional affair outside the marriage; this is betrayal... A boss or organization pretends to be honest and fair while manipulating employees to exploit their talents; this is betrayal...What do these examples of broken trust have in common?

• Personal and/or cultural expectations (understood by the betrayed as “The Truth”) are present.
• Based on these expectations, whole-hearted loyalty is given to another.
• "The Truth" is shattered; often due to someone making choices despite potential, major damage to the relationship.
• Shock and intense hurt feelings inevitably result.

Unfortunately, betrayals appear to be on the rise. It helps to know that we are not alone as broken trust is a universal experience.The human need to belong and be part of a relationship makes us open and therefore vulnerable to these painful emotions. An act of betrayal can hurt as much as, if not more than, a physical injury, but the trauma resides not in the body but in the mental/emotional/spiritual realm – our subtle energy fields. If we think of betrayal as a wound to the energy system, it follows that to heal; we must acknowledge and work with this same energy system.

p/s - “The harder you fall the higher you bounce” - Horace (Circa 35 B.C.E.) so get up and bounce higher ayeem!