Sleeping In the Closet

I have a weird habit;

Sleeping in the closet.

I am a Agoraphobic, I think.

I have the fear of open places and crowds.

I HATE when someone left the door open!

In the closet I am, feeling safe and secure.

The feeling like someone is holding, hugging me,

And watching me... sleeping thru d nite.

the dark, sometimes is a peace.

Yes, COMFORT :)

Grand Iftar 2008, UTP

Gendang gendut tali kecapi,

Kenyang perut suke hati :)

Mase kechik : Tak baek makan tak habes, nanti nasik nanges...

Mase besa : Tak baek makan tak habes, sebijik nasik umpama setitik peluh petani...

Macam-macam :D

My first and last iftar in UTP...and I was full~ nyummy :)

TROPIKA

Alas..Out of UTP for a while for bebuke puase at TROPIKA..But still, ONLY for a while :(

Kak Su, Yani, Semoh and Ayeem :)

The View

It's just I'm feeling lonely tonight,

I look out my window and this what I see;

The view I always see,

The view I want to get rid off ASAP,

YES, I HATE UTP!

Confession

Hi,

I have a confession to make;

I AM AFRAID

I'm afraid of responsibility.

I'm afraid of expectation.

I'm afraid of failure.

I'm afraid of love.

I'm afraid of tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow.

I'm afraid of the future.

I AM AFRAID OF LIFE...

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

This is my home sweet home :)

Google Earth stolen map..hahaha

Salam Ramadhan to all..the month i've been missing.. :) Lets all together of us cherish the month..tingkatkan amal.. terawikh! berpuasa.. and please dun skip any if it wasn't needed..please2.. i still dun understand why this certain PEOPLE need to..haish..what I miss the most right now is Kelantan's food..any kueh2..i want to go back home..and taste all of em.. heee :D Anyway this is an invitation for my frens around Kota bharu or Kelantan.. do visit my house for Hari Raya.. i got the map and my house pic up there.. I'll be waiting!!And we can do dis from house to house tour :D Happy Fasting people!May ALLAHs blessing be upon you and your family in the holy month of Ramadhan :)

p/s - Tiada hari seindah JUMAAT, Tiada kata seindah ZIKIR, Tiada ibadah seindah SOLAT, Tiada bulan seindah RAMADHAN :)

MERDEKA!!

Happy Independence Day Malaysia~ 31st August 2008 Malaysia Celebrate its 50+1 years of Independence..Happy Birthday Malaysia :D In nearly every year, a brand new theme and logo were made for the celebration of the Independence Day of Malaysia.. This year theme Perpaduan Teras Kejayaan (Unity Is The Core of Success).. but what actually merdeka means to me?;

- OUT of UTP..that means graduating..this place is HELL! :P~

- FREEDOM to choose my own way and my own path in dealing with my life!

- FREE from back talkers who thinks they are PERFECT.. Mind your own business please?

- Being SINGLE..hahaha means no more couple constraints..yeah!

- Living my life HAPPILY with my family and close friends :)

Oh yeah Ayeem Rockks! :D

p/s - the only year i missed the fireworks show...wuuu~

Curiosity killed the cat?

Curiosity killed the cat...

Ayeem = Cat

Yup, curiosity is killing me too!

The more I know, the more I dun understand, the more I hurted!


p/s - I LOVE CATS! meowww~

Avril Lavigne live in Malaysia

Heh..of course i didn't go..dis was only sumthing in my dream...someone, giving me a free VIP ticket maybe..or maybe a concert date.. maybe..ayeem,STOP... too much imagination!You'll never get one!Well, i used to like Avril a lot back then in school..what?6 years ago? :) Few of my frens said they'll remember me when they heard any Avril's..kan kerel kan?kan ude kan?kan?Sometimes i do wonder why...Concerts in Malaysia always gonna be a controversial one right?But THEY had no good reasons to ban this. To be frank, our authorities might be too strict, but not really unreasonable.There will never be a definite right or wrong for having these concerts… different people will share different point of view in the end. I just hope that people are allowed to make our choices… it’s the basic freedom.Haha ;) Avril’s concert only once in a few years (perhaps once in a lifetime) in Malaysia.and I MISSED it..due to CONSTRAINTS..and CONSTRAINTS... and more CONSTRAINTS..

p/s- I dun think Avril is sexy..She dun even haf the BODY..hahahaha!

Colors :D

Alin : Ayeem, ko tade baju kaler laen ke? asyik2 kaler cokelat, hitam, putih, kelabu..

Aku: Tade...

Alin: Cube ko try beli baju kaler ceria sket. Menarik sket orang nak pandang.Attract attention orang sket. Ko pon boleh happy.

Aku: Ye la.. ye la..

Yup..I guess what she said is true :) The colors of our clothes do effects our moods. And yep, people started to realize my existence..haha :) Thanks Cik Alin for the advice..See that blouses..Amek ko..Neon Color Traffic Light. Satisfied?

p/s - heh went for megasale last month.. dis what i grabbed at topshop.. topshop,yeah addictive!

weeeiiirrddd

weeeiiirrrddd...

when i was with you ..

you were afraid i'm not staying..

that you were just a stop for a while?

now when i'm not with you..

you are afraid i'll be waiting..

that i won't never say goodbye?

haish~

Happy 23rd Birthday Ayeem

And this shud be my birthday present for the year!

inhaling for healing :P~

I am 23 today..already an aldult i guess but still behaving like a cry baby..hahaha..And this is how i celebrate my birthday .. at the UTP clinic.. for asthma.. inhaling and an injection :D

My birthday wishes:

Graduation!

Keje!Keje!Keje!

New-Handsome-Engineer-Boyfriend!

p/s- Thank you people for the wishes especially Semah for the KFC and the gossips treat :)

Vincci

I realized where my earth color addiction came from; my mom. We went to Alamanda for Kasut Raya shopping and she picked up 3 choco color shoes for three of us... and I'll be wearing a pair of wedgies dis year! yeay~

p/s - You should know how much I love BROWN and BROWNIES too! :)

Desperate Singles (?!)

Kida, Bulu, Ayeem, Chepah and Aleng :D

(I'll upload the clearer pictures later)

Who I haven't seen in 6 years? Sharifah Fauziah Jap :D She flew from Kota Kinabalu to meet us.. This was maybe a small reunion of form 5 ALAMANDA doormates of 2002..we missed Syud as she was in Johor for her convocation :( those psychopaths living in a dorm..remember? where we fought, quarrelled, argued almost everyday and yet we can forgot about all those stupid thingy after 6 years.. that is what we called FRIENDSHIP :D I miss those time... movie shows at night under the bed.. The handphones charging services...The VIBRATED br***ts... etc ;)

What I love is us, being single (sorry Aleng ko excluded! :P~) so no about our boyfriends talkings and all we had was gossips, gossips and more gossips about others!e.g HE and SHE broke up..HE and SHE were back together..etc etc..haha remember Desperate Housewives? We were like those roles except we are singles! And we have the same problems like those housewives do too! haha..

Shopping, camera whoring, instant photo printing ( i had already bought the frame for the picta!) books hunting, slept over in Cititel Midvalley, problems sharing talks, The Manhattan Fish Market food testing? midnight movie Forgetting Sarah Marshall.. I'm loving it.. Thanks Chepah! :)

p/s - We still the same psychopath but we psycho only at guys not at each other..aiyakk!

Bocca della Verità

Have you ever try to waste your 40 cents feeding that mouth? I did.. I was bored, trying to find out new things to update my blog... So Chepah and me decided to have that lying-detector-mouth-of- truth-electronic-coin-operated-machine to read our palms...just trying to predict the future that obviusly we CAN'T.. We shouldn't belive what was written on the result paper but we were just having fun (of course!).. And here what that Mouth of Truth told about me... :D

You have a strong constitution and can work hard (Oh No!so-not-me!)

You enjoy excellent health although you often abuse it (Any comment?!Haha ok, i eat, sleep, exercise not WELL, i admit that)

You are unparalled where precision logic and analysis are concerned (Hurm..what did he mean anyway?..couldn't understand what he trying to say here..what the hell?)

You are sometimes over idealistic and you should learn to be more cautious to avoid dissapoinment (erks, kantoi!that is so true!)

You might have an accident but there should be no serious consequences (Accident and me are fate to be together..hell, I AM clumsy!)

Someone will try to exploit your feelings to their own advantage (Sapekah?Hello?Anyone? Who is this real mo-fo..please stand up! Cam mau ngaku jek :P~)

p/s - I have good rating on my life, love, and luck (hurmm yeke? yeke?i wonder...)

P.R.O.C.R.A.S.T.I.N.A.T.I.O.N

Bad attitude ayeem..very bad attitude..help me out of this!!!

Petronas Oh Petronas :D

To work with Petronas or NOT to work with Petronas? Well, i dunno, i really can't decide. I'm not a successful student for sure but someone said i just shud try my best in everything i do ( I'm hoping he did so :D).. But Rezeki kan..everything is from HIM, the All-Mighty :D Help! i need some motivation, i need my confidence back!

What I think about my PETRONAS tests?

Writing test? An essay..My extracuricular activities that can assists me with my job? Haiyaa? What actually activity in UTP i really involved with? I really can't remember! All I know.. I dooz off all the time, doing nothing or just having fun with my friends :P~ Ok, I just remember.. i once involved with the convofair..what? 3 years ago.. I designed that colourful weird commitee shirts and MPP stole some of my designs for MPP shirts! (I hate them for that!) I couldn't remember such things that so i just wrote craps!and again craps!yeah craps!Oh hopefully the HRs people believe my CRAPS!

Ability test? I'm sure the HRs know I AM not ABLE. We are the first who had to do this online, some sort of guinea pig i think :D We have these practice questions and example questions where we can review the marks. From all of those quetions my average scores is 2 out of 10!And we had the timing for the real test. Out of 60 questions (I think, I couldn't remember :P) i only managed to answer 20 of them and that 20 questions were only my randomly guess! I'm not confident that any of my answers was right! Hahahaha :D The-not-able-ayeem!

OPQ (Online Personal Questionnaire) kot? I'm not sure..hehe..how should i know my answers are consistent or not? I myself too don't understand myself. I have this personality conflicts since I was small. Some people said I'm COMPLICATED to understand and to predict. Some people said my personality changes from time to time. At time I can be like this, at time I can be like dat! Some people said I have split personality. I think? I dunno what I think.. i think they are all true.. I am what people said I am :D..malas nak argue actually, karang emo! :P~

The Interview...coming... I still dunno what to wear and I think I shud go for my formal-wearings shopping.. amende tah? (tak sedar pokai!) Have to find a blazer of course..Anyone teman?I also haven't done my resumes and I left my certificates at Hanim's.. I really messed up am I?Haish~!Nemmind, I bet my turn gonna be among the last as my result is among the worst.. procrastination! hehe..well people pray for me..the hopes, the wishs, the lucks, the prayers are everything i NEED!

p/s- Oh PETRONAS, please hired me! I really can't resist the DEBT!

Weekend Gateway 3/08/2008

This is my happiness, being with frens :D

Vandalisme, i miss being a kid..no worries, no problems, no stupid issues!

I drank singa-beng here :D

The nutritionist, the teacher, the software engineer, the immigration officer,the geologist, the chemical researcher, and the student (aku la tuh!) I had a great time...over night at Anis's. makan-makan at Thai resty, camera whoring at playground park, midnight movie Ayat-ayat Cinta,monorail biseng ride, jalan-jalan Bukit Bintang, megasale, shopping at pavillion, topshop!topshop! (i'm a topshop addict!), food hunting, sundae and banana split at johnny's, bracelets sharing-bought, camera whoring again at Bintang Walk :D ..I'm gonna miss all this :(

p/s - sorry people, belated post.. stupid UTP internet connection..blame ITMS! :P~

Boys + Girls = No Friends ?

Ok, i have this problem..all my friendship with guys always, yup always came to an end.. I dunno if boy and girl friendship really works.. well, especially for me.. like my bestfriends, guys bestfriends will come to this stupid-stupid conflicts..as example;

Mr A and I..He said we are bestfriends. We really were, till I started to have feelings for him. Then the problem came. He realized that. Maybe he was afraid because he didn't any feeling for me so he ran away.. And the ignorance started.. The end of a friendship.. I barely know him nowdays. Maybe we are just a stanger now. Maybe we can't even be friends; FOREVER!

Oh, so then here came Mr B..We are bestfriends, he said. Yup, we really were, till he started to have feeling for me..and I didn't! OK, we could really be friends, I woudn't run away. But he couldn't. Maybe to look at me and to talk to me without hiding that feeling was something.. something really hard to do. So he ran away. The second ignorance started again...

Then, Mr C came in to save the day. Bestfriends who had feeling for each other :) we had the same interest, we did the same things, we loved the same meals, we even finished each other words!So we decided to start dating!To involved feelings in friendships is what i always wish for; my boyfriend as my bestfriend. But he couldn't maybe. I was still swearing and cursing like no other his friends' girlfriends. I still liked to hang around with him commenting about other girls' butt. I didn't like him to call me darling or baby or honey as that wasn't what he called me before. I always wanted to join him and his friends activities. Where he found annoying!I wanted to tell him stories about other guys i was flirting with. But he couldn't accept it...Then it's over; both, the relationship and friendship. He said we still can be friends but the fact, he is ignoring me...

Last but not least, Mr D...we didn't had feeling for each other..But the friendships kept people talking. My 'the one' thinks it was not appropriate and his 'the one' can not approve it.So, without futher a due it's over... one more ignorance to deal with :D

p/s - When I watched Made of Honour.. I always imagine my boyfriend as my bestfriend..Maybe I am too OVERROMANTICIZING; yerp, another way to push the love away :P~

My Playlist

My winamp playlist...the songs that i keep shuffling on my computer's speakers..here the list by 08/08/08..my fav..songs that made i cry, the songs that made laugh, the songs that made me sings, the songs that made me dance :D

Boys Like Girls - Thunder (Acoustic version)

Chris Daughtry - What About Now

Coldplay - Viva La Vida

David Cook - Time Of My Life

Delta Goodrem - In This Life

Finger Eleven - Paralyzer

Flyleaf - All Around Me

Gavin DeGraw - In Love With A Girl

Gavin Rossdale - Love Remains the Same

Kate Perry - I Kissed A Girl

India Arie - The Heart Of The Matter

Jason Mraz - Lucky (feat. Colbie Caillat)

Buckcherry - Sorry

Yael Naim - New Soul

The Ting Tings - That's Not My Name

Rihanna - Disturbia

Rihanna - Take A Bow

The Pussycat Dolls - When I Grow Up

Paramore - That's What You Get

Sara Bareilles - Bottle It Up

Incubus - I Miss You ( Acoustic)

Jesse McCartney - Leavin'

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

John Mayer - Say

Jonas Brothers - Burnin' Up

Jordin Sparks - One Step At A Time

The Last Goodnight - Stay Beautiful

Leona Lewis - Better In Time

Lifehouse - Whatever It Takes

Lily Allen - Smile

Mariah Carey - Bye, Bye

Marie Digby - Say It Again

Maroon 5 - If I Never See Your Face Again (feat Rihanna)

Miley Cyrus - Seven Things

Natasha Bedingfield - Pocketful Of Sunshine

New Kids On The Block - Summertime

Panic At The Disco - Nine In The Afternoon

Seether - Rise Above This

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

Duffy - Mercy

Colbie Caillat - Realize

Colbie Caillat - The Little Things

Natasha Bedingfield - Soulmate

Panic At The Disco - Nine In The Afternoon

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down

Avenged Sevenfold - Dear God

3 Doors Down - It's Not My Time

Danity Kane - Damaged

p/s - I dreamt of being a DJ pulak and having my own radio station..wth? paddy, join? :P~