Monday, February 9, 2009

Dua' :)

I am sinned. I hold hatred and revenge in my heart, deeply. When they meet anger it gone to sumthing BAD, sumthing really-really-really BAD. I regret everything after that. I wished I could reverse my time and turned everything right. But what's done are done. I could only pray that I cud fix myself and become someone BETTER. In my times, I find many reasons why I did not make Dua; I forgot, didn’t know how, or just do not think it will be answered. Fundamental to this was the loss of dependence and trust upon Allah. As a Muslim there is something very wrong when I believed my Duas won’t be answered. I did not turn to Allah in my times of need and instead put my trust, dependence and hopes on worldly things that I thot will help me. My FAULT i know. I always realize that.

Dua is the key to everything in life; key to all human needs - be it in this world or hereafter. However, being human as I am, I was always in a haste whenever I made dua to Allah (SWT) and expect an immediate answer.With making Dua and comes Sabr and lots more Sabr, I have become a people who wants instant gratification, I am used to pressing the buttons and getting what I want NOW. Dua does not work that way as we all know - the secret tool here is sabr….. The most important thing  I shud note that once dua is done concensiously with good intentions, be guaranteed that SWT will answer it. I may not see immediate result or get what I asked for but surely I will be answered. As a human I may not know whether what I was asking for from Allah (SWT) is the best for me at the time of my need(s) or not. Allah therefore knows the best for me at ALL TIMES and may decide to provide me with something else instead of what I asked for. A fren, a really good fren reminds me of that. Thanks DEAR :) 

I admit sometimes I become afraid of the evil around me and I am not sure sometimes how to become stronger. I know we should only fear Allah, but i know sometimes I become weak to my fears. Sometime I have often wondered, why my life seem so difficult, but as I look back, I see Allah was in front of me all the time. I can go on and on with all the things that Allah give to me and do for me. To say thank you is not enough. Though my times have been hard and still are many now, my thoughts are always that Allah see all and now all things and Allah’s word is the last word.

Allah Almighty says in the Qur’an:
“When my servants ask you concerning me, (tell them) I am indeed close (to them). I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calls on me.” [2:186]

May Allah bless us all and guide us to the right direction. Please pray for me that I won't do anymore STUPID things, anymore WASTE of my life. I love myself and I love you all :)

6 comments:

Azwan said...

pergh.karangan cikgu sim ajar ke?

Joan^Of^Arc said...

cikgu sim..owh,owh i missed her.. ko tayah la tunggu aku cuci tandas lg n tiru homework aku...

Azwan said...

aku malu!aku malu!
tlng jangan sebut aku tiru lagi!tolong.tapi kan,sebab tiru ko dl la,aku dah masuk UTM tau.Alhamdulillah.

aleng said...

tanamkn la dlm hati. sentiasa ingat k syg...

Tmc said...

may Allah be your strength, ayeem dear=)
**hugss*

Mighty Jacksparrow said...

oh. du`a u mean? i thot the number 2.