Friday, November 28, 2008

Tagged Virus

[*] 7 Fakta tentang saya
~23 years old
~First in the family
~Study EE engineering in UTP (n i hate that!)
~Single and available ( huahuahuahua!)
~Kelantanese :D
~reckless driver
~ego n emo

[*] 7 Perkara menakutkan saya di dunia
~God's Ad-Dunya punishment
~People's talkings and fitna'
~Lost love..Love lost
~the lost of FAITH
~Hatred and revenge

[*] 7 Lagu buat masa sekarang
~Imogen Heap - Speeding Cars
~One Republic - Come Home
~Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody
~Lifehouse - Whatever It Takes
~Saving Jane - Supergirl
~The Bravery - Time Won't Let Me Go
~Delta Goodrem - Lost Without You

[*] 7 Perkara selalu sebut.
~Ye la Kot
~Tak Kesah
~Tape la

[*] 7 Perkara yang amat bernilai.

[*] 7 Pertama kali dalam hidup saya7 org bertuah menjawab tag ni.
~Sesape yg membaca
~Sesape yg ingin menjawap

Monday, November 24, 2008

Mushroom in the Rain

Picking mushroom..
In cats and dogs rain..
Eating mushroom soup..
While watching the rain falling like pain..

Thanks Opah :)

p/s- manage to get a bucket full of mushrooms..yeay~

Thursday, November 6, 2008


Remember me?..

Nope, not even the IE cookies.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Guys..I won't Date

1) Perverts, Perverts, Perverts
Ok, i know guys cudn't run away from thinking about sex. Sex thinking and boy are like twins that never can be seperated from their birth to their death. Natural Bronte..Normal I sed.I don't care what you guys think of me or other girls..just, keep it to urself!Please don't step over the limit of talking and beware of your act!Show some respect!Don't you ever think you can easily touch me except you are someone to me! Get my attention,get to knoe me, prove you love me, marry me and you can talk and do what ever you want!Don't just be a dickhead!

2) Smokers who smoke in front of people
You want to be dead earlier than me, go ahead!Just don't drag me with you!Smoke with your friends, smoke outside my house, I don't care...just makesure you are far-far away from me!I don't want to end up in the clinic..inhaled once again..I can't even stand the smell of the smoke from the 2nd party shirt.. how i can live my life with this type of guys?

3)Sweet talkers and Liars
Cakap tak serupa bikin.What I got only promises and lies..Janji tinggal janji!More than words is all I need!Enough said!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Balik After Raya - Lebuhraya Timur Barat

The journey was hazy. From Jeli to Gerik the road was full with mist and fog; raining cats and dogs. But we; Asmah and me were having fun skodeng this yellow volkswagen along the way..It was YELLOW!classy isn't it?owh,I'm so into old school and retro style...I love vespa, I love volkswagen (which i used to call kereta bug bug when i was small, maybe because it looks like a creepy-crawly beetle), I love thick framed spectacles, I love Jack Purcell shoes and The Beetles and also VANS...The driver and passenger seemed cute too! So, if you are one of them or have a track of the owner of this modified-engine-shooting-volksie please contact 017-PERASAN..haha..I'll be waiting ;-)

Stopped by at Banding Island for a while for a photo snapping session..The dead tree and the lake sangat menareks.I'm gonna have a Belum forest holiday sumday..yerp sumday..any nature lover out there? anyone join? :) Life; there's a LOT to explore!

Friday, October 3, 2008

VVIP vs us

Ridel Hotel Cafe.The location;Kelantan's Riverview, nice. But the service and the taste was HORRIBLE, didn't deserve the expensive charge we paid!"We need to serve the Dato' first before come to you.Wait for a while.." I still remember what the waiter said..Hello? A while? We waited there for almost an hour!Sangat teruk!Well, maybe we are not the VVIP but still we are your customer!I mean, WAS your customer!Still, was having fun snapping picture there :D

Thursday, October 2, 2008


I was trying to snap the shadow of me on the car's screen when a moving school van passed by.And it was yellow... :D

p/s - Listening to Coldplay - Yellow :)

Family is All About...

F - Fun and Celebration
A - Always there for each other
M - Moment of togetherness
I - Innumerable stories
L - Lots of sweet moments
Y - Years and memories

Family is about these and MORE :)

The warmth and loving presence
makes our family all the MORE special :)
Happy Eid Mubarak!
Sorry Body and Soul

The Third Generation

Abang Li's - Fatin, Farini, Alif
Kak Zah's - Dayana, Imanina , Qayyum
Kak Mah's - Ainun, Arif, Adam
Kak Ma's - Aisyah


Sangat suke budak-budak
tunggu turn aku lak nk dapat anak~ hahaha
entah bile.....
Mau jadi kanak-kanak semula.. sumthing u can't rewind- Lillix

Monday, September 29, 2008

Bunga Api :D

Selamat Hari Raya...Hari untuk kita bersuka true!..I'm having fun :D
Soooo in Raya mood!Salam Aidilfitri people!Maaf Zahir & Batin :)

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Sleeping In the Closet

I have a weird habit;
Sleeping in the closet.
I am a Agoraphobic, I think.
I have the fear of open places and crowds.
I HATE when someone left the door open!
In the closet I am, feeling safe and secure.
The feeling like someone is holding, hugging me,
And watching me... sleeping thru d nite.
the dark, sometimes is a peace.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Grand Iftar 2008, UTP

Gendang gendut tali kecapi,
Kenyang perut suke hati :)

Mase kechik : Tak baek makan tak habes, nanti nasik nanges...
Mase besa : Tak baek makan tak habes, sebijik nasik umpama setitik peluh petani...
Macam-macam :D

My first and last iftar in UTP...and I was full~ nyummy :)

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Ayeem, 1968

Sah, aku tade keje..still, dis didn't suit my face sgt but ni la yang paling OK.. :D

Try la for fun..(dis advice ONLY for people yg tade keje cam aku!hehe)

Sunday, September 14, 2008


Alas..Out of UTP for a while for bebuke puase at TROPIKA..But still, ONLY for a while :(

Kak Su, Yani, Semoh and Ayeem :)

Saturday, September 13, 2008

The View

It's just I'm feeling lonely tonight,
I look out my window and this what I see;
The view I always see,
The view I want to get rid off ASAP,

Sunday, September 7, 2008


I have a confession to make;
I'm afraid of responsibility.
I'm afraid of expectation.
I'm afraid of failure.
I'm afraid of love.
I'm afraid of tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow.
I'm afraid of the future.

Monday, September 1, 2008

Be Strong by Delta Goodrem

Are you swimming upstream in oceans of blue?
Do you feel like your sinking?
Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through?
Well I know what you're thinking
When you can't take it
You can make it
Sometime soon I know you'll see

'cause when your in you're darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on and be strong

Where taking each step one day at a time
You can't loose your spirit
Let live and let live forget and forgive
It's all how you see it
And just remember keep it together
Don't you know you're never alone

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on, and be strong

No you're not defeated
And soon you'll be smiling once again
Then you won't have to feel it
Let it go with the wind
Time passes us by
And know that you're aloud to cry

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on and be strong

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

This is my home sweet home :)

Google Earth stolen map..hahaha

Salam Ramadhan to all..the month i've been missing.. :) Lets all together of us cherish the month..tingkatkan amal.. terawikh! berpuasa.. and please dun skip any if it wasn't needed..please2.. i still dun understand why this certain PEOPLE need to..haish..what I miss the most right now is Kelantan's food..any kueh2..i want to go back home..and taste all of em.. heee :D Anyway this is an invitation for my frens around Kota bharu or Kelantan.. do visit my house for Hari Raya.. i got the map and my house pic up there.. I'll be waiting!!And we can do dis from house to house tour :D Happy Fasting people!May ALLAHs blessing be upon you and your family in the holy month of Ramadhan :)

p/s - Tiada hari seindah JUMAAT, Tiada kata seindah ZIKIR, Tiada ibadah seindah SOLAT, Tiada bulan seindah RAMADHAN :)

Sunday, August 31, 2008


Happy Independence Day Malaysia~ 31st August 2008 Malaysia Celebrate its 50+1 years of Independence..Happy Birthday Malaysia :D In nearly every year, a brand new theme and logo were made for the celebration of the Independence Day of Malaysia.. This year theme Perpaduan Teras Kejayaan (Unity Is The Core of Success).. but what actually merdeka means to me?;

- OUT of UTP..that means graduating..this place is HELL! :P~

- FREEDOM to choose my own way and my own path in dealing with my life!

- FREE from back talkers who thinks they are PERFECT.. Mind your own business please?

- Being SINGLE..hahaha means no more couple constraints..yeah!

- Living my life HAPPILY with my family and close friends :)

Oh yeah Ayeem Rockks! :D

p/s - the only year i missed the fireworks show...wuuu~

Curiosity killed the cat?

Curiosity killed the cat...

Ayeem = Cat

Yup, curiosity is killing me too!
The more I know, the more I dun understand, the more I hurted!

p/s - I LOVE CATS! meowww~

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Avril Lavigne live in Malaysia

Heh..of course i didn't go..dis was only sumthing in my dream...someone, giving me a free VIP ticket maybe..or maybe a concert date.. maybe..ayeem,STOP... too much imagination!You'll never get one!Well, i used to like Avril a lot back then in school..what?6 years ago? :) Few of my frens said they'll remember me when they heard any Avril's..kan kerel kan?kan ude kan?kan?Sometimes i do wonder why...Concerts in Malaysia always gonna be a controversial one right?But THEY had no good reasons to ban this. To be frank, our authorities might be too strict, but not really unreasonable.There will never be a definite right or wrong for having these concerts… different people will share different point of view in the end. I just hope that people are allowed to make our choices… it’s the basic freedom.Haha ;) Avril’s concert only once in a few years (perhaps once in a lifetime) in Malaysia.and I MISSED it..due to CONSTRAINTS..and CONSTRAINTS... and more CONSTRAINTS..

p/s- I dun think Avril is sexy..She dun even haf the BODY..hahahaha!

Friday, August 29, 2008

Colors :D

Alin : Ayeem, ko tade baju kaler laen ke? asyik2 kaler cokelat, hitam, putih, kelabu..

Aku: Tade...

Alin: Cube ko try beli baju kaler ceria sket. Menarik sket orang nak pandang.Attract attention orang sket. Ko pon boleh happy.

Aku: Ye la.. ye la..

Yup..I guess what she said is true :) The colors of our clothes do effects our moods. And yep, people started to realize my existence..haha :) Thanks Cik Alin for the advice..See that blouses..Amek ko..Neon Color Traffic Light. Satisfied?

p/s - heh went for megasale last month.. dis what i grabbed at topshop.. topshop,yeah addictive!

Thursday, August 28, 2008


when i was with you ..
you were afraid i'm not staying..
that you were just a stop for a while?
now when i'm not with you..
you are afraid i'll be waiting..
that i won't never say goodbye?

Happy 23rd Birthday Ayeem

And this shud be my birthday present for the year!

inhaling for healing :P~

I am 23 today..already an aldult i guess but still behaving like a cry baby..hahaha..And this is how i celebrate my birthday .. at the UTP clinic.. for asthma.. inhaling and an injection :D

My birthday wishes:




p/s- Thank you people for the wishes especially Semah for the KFC and the gossips treat :)

Tuesday, August 19, 2008


I realized where my earth color addiction came from; my mom. We went to Alamanda for Kasut Raya shopping and she picked up 3 choco color shoes for three of us... and I'll be wearing a pair of wedgies dis year! yeay~

p/s - You should know how much I love BROWN and BROWNIES too! :)

Desperate Singles (?!)

Kida, Bulu, Ayeem, Chepah and Aleng :D
(I'll upload the clearer pictures later)

Who I haven't seen in 6 years? Sharifah Fauziah Jap :D She flew from Kota Kinabalu to meet us.. This was maybe a small reunion of form 5 ALAMANDA doormates of 2002..we missed Syud as she was in Johor for her convocation :( those psychopaths living in a dorm..remember? where we fought, quarrelled, argued almost everyday and yet we can forgot about all those stupid thingy after 6 years.. that is what we called FRIENDSHIP :D I miss those time... movie shows at night under the bed.. The handphones charging services...The VIBRATED br***ts... etc ;)

What I love is us, being single (sorry Aleng ko excluded! :P~) so no about our boyfriends talkings and all we had was gossips, gossips and more gossips about others!e.g HE and SHE broke up..HE and SHE were back together..etc etc..haha remember Desperate Housewives? We were like those roles except we are singles! And we have the same problems like those housewives do too! haha..

Shopping, camera whoring, instant photo printing ( i had already bought the frame for the picta!) books hunting, slept over in Cititel Midvalley, problems sharing talks, The Manhattan Fish Market food testing? midnight movie Forgetting Sarah Marshall.. I'm loving it.. Thanks Chepah! :)

p/s - We still the same psychopath but we psycho only at guys not at each other..aiyakk!

Bocca della Verità

Have you ever try to waste your 40 cents feeding that mouth? I did.. I was bored, trying to find out new things to update my blog... So Chepah and me decided to have that lying-detector-mouth-of- truth-electronic-coin-operated-machine to read our palms...just trying to predict the future that obviusly we CAN'T.. We shouldn't belive what was written on the result paper but we were just having fun (of course!).. And here what that Mouth of Truth told about me... :D

You have a strong constitution and can work hard (Oh No!so-not-me!)

You enjoy excellent health although you often abuse it (Any comment?!Haha ok, i eat, sleep, exercise not WELL, i admit that)

You are unparalled where precision logic and analysis are concerned (Hurm..what did he mean anyway?..couldn't understand what he trying to say here..what the hell?)

You are sometimes over idealistic and you should learn to be more cautious to avoid dissapoinment (erks, kantoi!that is so true!)

You might have an accident but there should be no serious consequences (Accident and me are fate to be together..hell, I AM clumsy!)

Someone will try to exploit your feelings to their own advantage (Sapekah?Hello?Anyone? Who is this real mo-fo..please stand up! Cam mau ngaku jek :P~)

p/s - I have good rating on my life, love, and luck (hurmm yeke? yeke?i wonder...)

Thursday, August 14, 2008


I just cleaned up my MESS :D

Wednesday, August 13, 2008


Bad attitude ayeem..very bad me out of this!!!

Monday, August 11, 2008

Petronas Oh Petronas :D

To work with Petronas or NOT to work with Petronas? Well, i dunno, i really can't decide. I'm not a successful student for sure but someone said i just shud try my best in everything i do ( I'm hoping he did so :D).. But Rezeki kan..everything is from HIM, the All-Mighty :D Help! i need some motivation, i need my confidence back!

What I think about my PETRONAS tests?

Writing test? An essay..My extracuricular activities that can assists me with my job? Haiyaa? What actually activity in UTP i really involved with? I really can't remember! All I know.. I dooz off all the time, doing nothing or just having fun with my friends :P~ Ok, I just remember.. i once involved with the convofair..what? 3 years ago.. I designed that colourful weird commitee shirts and MPP stole some of my designs for MPP shirts! (I hate them for that!) I couldn't remember such things that so i just wrote craps!and again craps!yeah craps!Oh hopefully the HRs people believe my CRAPS!

Ability test? I'm sure the HRs know I AM not ABLE. We are the first who had to do this online, some sort of guinea pig i think :D We have these practice questions and example questions where we can review the marks. From all of those quetions my average scores is 2 out of 10!And we had the timing for the real test. Out of 60 questions (I think, I couldn't remember :P) i only managed to answer 20 of them and that 20 questions were only my randomly guess! I'm not confident that any of my answers was right! Hahahaha :D The-not-able-ayeem!

OPQ (Online Personal Questionnaire) kot? I'm not should i know my answers are consistent or not? I myself too don't understand myself. I have this personality conflicts since I was small. Some people said I'm COMPLICATED to understand and to predict. Some people said my personality changes from time to time. At time I can be like this, at time I can be like dat! Some people said I have split personality. I think? I dunno what I think.. i think they are all true.. I am what people said I am :D..malas nak argue actually, karang emo! :P~

The Interview...coming... I still dunno what to wear and I think I shud go for my formal-wearings shopping.. amende tah? (tak sedar pokai!) Have to find a blazer of course..Anyone teman?I also haven't done my resumes and I left my certificates at Hanim's.. I really messed up am I?Haish~!Nemmind, I bet my turn gonna be among the last as my result is among the worst.. procrastination! hehe..well people pray for me..the hopes, the wishs, the lucks, the prayers are everything i NEED!

p/s- Oh PETRONAS, please hired me! I really can't resist the DEBT!

Batch 9802 TKC gathering 01/08/08

Besties :D

The models...choose one or more? :D


God gives us faith to live through the days
and we share all the thoughts together
and it will last forever

you're the light that i see
you're the path to get through
you're the shadow stands together
it remains now and ever

*joy and pain we share
laughters and tears we care
our friends we love
all the suffering thick and thin we fight
and we'll fight till the end

the spirit stays
and all the love and care for you
we watch the days passed by us
and we're here in unity

in the moments of fear
my friend, don't shed a tear
we will gain our strenght together
walk in hands, never fail to understand

Repeat *

there will be timesdays will go by so fast
and our friendship means so much to us
there will be time
when it's time for us to leave

Repeat *

p/s - I dunno what to write about the gath. Maybe because it is already past a week so i forget the details.If i could i want to write all those 5 years memories i had here..sumthing i really treasure :) maybe later hahaha suddenly, i miss the batch song..wah windu nyanyi ramai-ramai :(

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Weekend Gateway 3/08/2008

This is my happiness, being with frens :D

Vandalisme, i miss being a worries, no problems, no stupid issues!

I drank singa-beng here :D

The nutritionist, the teacher, the software engineer, the immigration officer,the geologist, the chemical researcher, and the student (aku la tuh!) I had a great time...over night at Anis's. makan-makan at Thai resty, camera whoring at playground park, midnight movie Ayat-ayat Cinta,monorail biseng ride, jalan-jalan Bukit Bintang, megasale, shopping at pavillion, topshop!topshop! (i'm a topshop addict!), food hunting, sundae and banana split at johnny's, bracelets sharing-bought, camera whoring again at Bintang Walk :D ..I'm gonna miss all this :(
p/s - sorry people, belated post.. stupid UTP internet connection..blame ITMS! :P~

Boys + Girls = No Friends ?

Ok, i have this problem..all my friendship with guys always, yup always came to an end.. I dunno if boy and girl friendship really works.. well, especially for me.. like my bestfriends, guys bestfriends will come to this stupid-stupid example;

Mr A and I..He said we are bestfriends. We really were, till I started to have feelings for him. Then the problem came. He realized that. Maybe he was afraid because he didn't any feeling for me so he ran away.. And the ignorance started.. The end of a friendship.. I barely know him nowdays. Maybe we are just a stanger now. Maybe we can't even be friends; FOREVER!

Oh, so then here came Mr B..We are bestfriends, he said. Yup, we really were, till he started to have feeling for me..and I didn't! OK, we could really be friends, I woudn't run away. But he couldn't. Maybe to look at me and to talk to me without hiding that feeling was something.. something really hard to do. So he ran away. The second ignorance started again...

Then, Mr C came in to save the day. Bestfriends who had feeling for each other :) we had the same interest, we did the same things, we loved the same meals, we even finished each other words!So we decided to start dating!To involved feelings in friendships is what i always wish for; my boyfriend as my bestfriend. But he couldn't maybe. I was still swearing and cursing like no other his friends' girlfriends. I still liked to hang around with him commenting about other girls' butt. I didn't like him to call me darling or baby or honey as that wasn't what he called me before. I always wanted to join him and his friends activities. Where he found annoying!I wanted to tell him stories about other guys i was flirting with. But he couldn't accept it...Then it's over; both, the relationship and friendship. He said we still can be friends but the fact, he is ignoring me...

Last but not least, Mr D...we didn't had feeling for each other..But the friendships kept people talking. My 'the one' thinks it was not appropriate and his 'the one' can not approve it.So, without futher a due it's over... one more ignorance to deal with :D

p/s - When I watched Made of Honour.. I always imagine my boyfriend as my bestfriend..Maybe I am too OVERROMANTICIZING; yerp, another way to push the love away :P~

Saturday, August 9, 2008

My Playlist

My winamp playlist...the songs that i keep shuffling on my computer's the list by 08/08/ fav..songs that made i cry, the songs that made laugh, the songs that made me sings, the songs that made me dance :D
Boys Like Girls - Thunder (Acoustic version)
Chris Daughtry - What About Now
Coldplay - Viva La Vida
David Cook - Time Of My Life
Delta Goodrem - In This Life
Finger Eleven - Paralyzer
Flyleaf - All Around Me
Gavin DeGraw - In Love With A Girl
Gavin Rossdale - Love Remains the Same
Kate Perry - I Kissed A Girl
India Arie - The Heart Of The Matter
Jason Mraz - Lucky (feat. Colbie Caillat)
Buckcherry - Sorry
Yael Naim - New Soul
The Ting Tings - That's Not My Name
Rihanna - Disturbia
Rihanna - Take A Bow
The Pussycat Dolls - When I Grow Up
Paramore - That's What You Get
Sara Bareilles - Bottle It Up
Incubus - I Miss You ( Acoustic)
Jesse McCartney - Leavin'
Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
John Mayer - Say
Jonas Brothers - Burnin' Up
Jordin Sparks - One Step At A Time
The Last Goodnight - Stay Beautiful
Leona Lewis - Better In Time
Lifehouse - Whatever It Takes
Lily Allen - Smile
Mariah Carey - Bye, Bye
Marie Digby - Say It Again
Maroon 5 - If I Never See Your Face Again (feat Rihanna)
Miley Cyrus - Seven Things
Natasha Bedingfield - Pocketful Of Sunshine
New Kids On The Block - Summertime
Panic At The Disco - Nine In The Afternoon
Seether - Rise Above This
Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You
Duffy - Mercy
Colbie Caillat - Realize
Colbie Caillat - The Little Things
Natasha Bedingfield - Soulmate
Panic At The Disco - Nine In The Afternoon
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down
Avenged Sevenfold - Dear God
3 Doors Down - It's Not My Time
Danity Kane - Damaged
p/s - I dreamt of being a DJ pulak and having my own radio station..wth? paddy, join? :P~

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Happy Belated Friendshipday!

Dearest Friends,

Keep your eyes upon me, keep me in your sight, Help me don the crooked road, lead me to the light. The road I'm on is dark, I'm not sure if I know the way, Yet with you right beside me, I'm certain I won't stray. Protect me from the world, I know we'll make it through, Give me all the strength I need..... Let me lean on you.

I'd like to be the sort of friend that you have been to me. . . I'd like to be the help you've always been glad to be; I'd like to mean as much to you each minute of the day, as you have meant, old friend of mine, to me along the way..

Don't walk in front of me, i may not follow~ don't walk behind me, i may not lead~ walk beside me and just be my friend :)

Love Lots; Ayeem


When my turn gonna be?..I wonder...

Cinot's reception.Spot me!Spot me!

Love is a flower which turns into fruit at marriage. Success in marriage does not come merely through finding the right mate, but through being the right mate. Marriage means commitment. Of course, so does insanity. I would love to get married. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life. Yet at 23, I still couldn't find that special one :( hahaha.Marriage is a great institution, but I'm not ready for an institution. So far away from ready...The responsibility, the expectation; that i'm afraid of. It's just too early, I think!I'm single and love to mingle :P~

p/s - Happy newlyweds cinot! :) Click at the thumbnail for a full picture view ;)

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

The Heart Of The Matter

One of my fav songs right now. I keep listening to it over and over again like I've never been bored! Originally sang by Don Henley, the song was later covered by India Arie, the third piece from India Arie's third album;Testimony: Vol. 1, Life & Relationship.This song, means something to me. Something I'm trying to get, something I'm trying to find, something I'm trying to give; forgiveness. "The Heart of the Matter" charted on the UK Singles Chart on 1 June 2008, based on download sales alone, due to the release of the Sex and the City: The Movie soundtrack. :) So, do cherish the lyrics people..because i do!

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

About me?

What i think about me;

Emotional.Overreacted.Dramatic.Grumpy.Snubbish.Egoistic.Hot-tempered.Sacrastic.Stub-born.Manje.Mengade-ngade.Malas.Rude.Materialistic.Spoilt-brat.Freak.Dependant.Defensive.Moody.Conservative.Clumsy.Critical thinker.Obsessive.Sensitive.Annoying.PSYCHO :)

This is what i wrote in the 'about me' friendster section (owh how i HATE friendster!). And i think it's so describing me.What do u think?

p/s - I'm on my aim to turn my blog into a friendster testimonials/comments place.because i HATE friendster!Hahahaha~

Monday, July 28, 2008


I surf thru the online dictionary on the definitions of 'durian' .. here what i get
1.the edible fruit of a tree, Durio zibethinus, of the bombax family, of southeastern Asia, having a hard, prickly rind, a highly flavored, pulpy flesh, and an unpleasant odor.
2.the tree itself.

American Heritage Dictionary
1.A tree (Durio zibethinus) of southeast Asia, bearing edible fruit.
2.The fruit of this plant, having a hard, prickly rind and soft pulp with an offensive odor but a pleasant taste.

1. tree of southeastern Asia having edible oval fruit with a hard spiny rind
2. huge fruit native to southeastern Asia 'smelling like Hell and tasting like Heaven'; seeds are roasted and eaten like nuts.

The fruit of the durio. It is oval or globular, and eight or ten inches long. It has a hard prickly rind, containing a soft, cream-colored pulp, of a most delicious flavor and a very offensive odor. The seeds are roasted and eaten like chestnuts.

p/s - It's the durian season here in Malaysia. I love when we went to our durian orchard and picked the fruits under their trees. I love chasing those squirrel too. I love eating pulut durian for my dinner. Heh, i just love kampung :) ayeem pro kopek durian! :P~

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Baju Raya!

Oranje :D

testing 1, 2, 3




Guess what? ;) For the first time in my life i'll have kebaya for my baju raya! and that its gonna be the first in my wardrobe!Bandung made kebaya :D i went to the tailor today! can't wait to wear it~

p/s - haven't replace my fasting yet.. and i'm excited with my baju raya?haish~

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Save the turtles?

Slurping time!

The ping-pong look alike turtle's egg :)

Turtles, turtles, turtles, they cry to be save...crying, crying, crying just like me!The cry is just the reaction of the salty water that irritates their eyes.Me, i cry because seeing some people happy irritates me!Some sort of stupid brain reaction!Hahahaha.. Save the turtles?yep yep they are endangered species but i cant help to love their eggs. I'm sorry :,( Izzit just enough to tell i'm sorry? Somebody come and saves me too!
p/s - ayeem = turtle ? slow and vulnerable...endangered too! hahaha~!

Friday, July 25, 2008

Chicken Chop

Maybe i'm in love with food. Maybe only food can makes me happy :) .. We (Mak, Achik and me) made chicken chop for lunch today... nyum2.. it's been a while.. few years after our last cooking together :)

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Why So Serious?

Can you avenge evil and not become it?
Revenge, punishment, repay... If i was part of it, i was no different from HIM! If HE was an evil, then i was just the same; to hold the grudge, i am the evil myself! And the devil, laughing at me, like i was laughing at HIM! If a man wished to punish another man, it would be the least destructive as God's punishment... Ya Allah, please help me to forgive and to forget... Amin...
p/s - I loved Heath Ledger. I loved HIM. Heath Ledger is dead so does HIM..people I loved, RIP... Michelle Williams is moving on and i should too! Dark Knight sgt best! :) Dark Knight was arrested! :P~ hahaha

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Cloudy Cloud

LCCT - Bandung Flight...clouds,clouds,the pack Indonesia from above,the beautiful islands,i see the plane's shadow, i love! :)

ayeem ; wandering around, trying to find a way to fly to the sky, free as a bird!

How sweet to be a cloud floating in the Blue!My little spirit, see, sits in a foggy cloud, and stays for me.Clouds may come, but clouds must go, and they all have a silver lining. For behind each cloud you know, the sun, or moon, is shining.The cloud never comes from the quarter of the horizon from which we watch for it.A cloud cannot cast a shadow unless the sun is shining beyond it. A cloud does not know why it moves in just such a direction and at such a speed...It feels an impulsion...this is the place to go now. But the sky knows the reasons and the patterns behind all clouds, and you will know, too, when you lift yourself high enough to see beyond horizons...Happiness is like a cloud, if you stare at it long enough, it evaporates but behind every cloud is another cloud. :)

p/s - A promise is a cloud; fulfillment is rain.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Like and Dislike

I talked to a guy... a friend of mine

He said to me...

"See that chair ayeem? If you liked that chair just give 80% of your like and save 20% for dislike, and if you disliked that chair just dislike it for 80% and save your 20% for like, vice versa.You'll never know what will happen later, things might had change, a turn over. And you'll might not regret everything that does in everything..if you liked or disliked something or someone "

I just smile :) I hope it was not just some sweet talkings came out from his mouth...
p/s - "When one door of happiness closes, another opens: but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."